Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Hi. Can i get your autograph Mr. Mineo...

I'm hella done with school.
Two more days? Man, i don't even wanna go, but I gotta ya'know? I have to see everybody. I feel like I I have to use these next two days to appreciate the time I have left with whoever I'm saying good-bye too.
I don't see why I'm not looking at the glass half-full, usually I'd be hella happy that school's done with. But the glass is half empty. I'm bummed facing the fact that these seniors that I've grown so close to, are all leaving. I won't be seeing them anymore, and that's what gets me. I took their presence in school for granted, when I could've been making the best out of it. I just couldn't please everybody...

Shit, it sucks feeling like this. All I can do now is hope I don't become to de-attached from them and that I'll always remember them all. I don't know what to do, the least I can do now is stay close with everybody in my class, maybe then I won't feel so miserable about graduating ya'dig? We'll see how the year goes.

Signing year books, omg. I hate it. I mean, I don't hate it, but it's hard. This is first year I've actually realized that I never have enough to say to someone that's going to be leaving. Cause last year, I never really cared for seniors if they left, I didn't feel that I was going to miss them, only a couple, but I knew that I'd be just fine cause I wasn't so close to them. But this year is hella different, I was speechless when it actually came down to writing what I wanted to say. It's like i KNEW what to say, but it was just hella hard to put it in words cause I didn't even know where to start.. It was especially hard writing in Gaby's yearbook. Damn, I couldn't write enough. . And I feel like I didn't write enough. It's like I knew what I wanted to say, But I didn't know where to start. . . (Hello Gaby, I miss you.) And I'm hella mad that I actually wanted to write in their yearbooks some of the seniors didn't even get them.

I don't even know what to say anymore. i got practice soon, Deuces.

No comments: