A Michael Jackson Tribute.

The CPDRC prisoners at it again. My Mom showed it to me when I came back from the gym this morning. It's pretty amazing.. It literally wasn't until this morning when it finally hit me that Michael Jackson died...



It's not even about Filipino pride anymore, It's for the world to admire and be a part of. God bless Michael Jackson and all his achievements. May he dance and sing for all eternity in heaven. Rest in peace King of Pop, rest in peace.

Packin' heat

Damn, this deserved a post. Even if it is out of my precious time.
Oh happy day..

So today i find out that i don't even need summerschool. AT all. in fact, i'm AHEAD with my credits. Those two days IN hercules high was not crackin'.
But now i have a free summer, FREE!

i have this week planned out.
Gonna watch transformers, fasho.
Baldo's this friday maybe, and forensics. Plus YN? haha
Buddha's grad party, then AJ's suprise party.

Happy summer. Love Kerks :)

p.s. it's hella hot... YES!

I don't believe in Magic..

Summer...
Can't believe it came so quick. It really doesn't even feel like it yet. I'm still stuck on feeling like we're still in school.
Everything's been alright though :)
Kickin' It with people a lot.
Victoria by the bay, EVERY DAMN DAY, haha.
It's chill there man, no lie, especially when you're with people you enjoy being around.
And the past weekend I hosted a play-offs kick back at my house. Zack, Ian, Kao, Lee, Devin, Thanh, Bip, Luis, Renjie, Aj, and Michelle.
Lakers take it, Kobe's 4TH Championship win. I didn't believe in magic from the start of the finals. Chilled at Victoria By the Bay after. Went on an adventure, watched the sunset :)
Ehhh, too much about Saturday. FINNA make this short.

There's more to come this summer. Let go and Live!





.... I feel empty not being able to talk to her :(

Hi. Can i get your autograph Mr. Mineo...

I'm hella done with school.
Two more days? Man, i don't even wanna go, but I gotta ya'know? I have to see everybody. I feel like I I have to use these next two days to appreciate the time I have left with whoever I'm saying good-bye too.
I don't see why I'm not looking at the glass half-full, usually I'd be hella happy that school's done with. But the glass is half empty. I'm bummed facing the fact that these seniors that I've grown so close to, are all leaving. I won't be seeing them anymore, and that's what gets me. I took their presence in school for granted, when I could've been making the best out of it. I just couldn't please everybody...

Shit, it sucks feeling like this. All I can do now is hope I don't become to de-attached from them and that I'll always remember them all. I don't know what to do, the least I can do now is stay close with everybody in my class, maybe then I won't feel so miserable about graduating ya'dig? We'll see how the year goes.

Signing year books, omg. I hate it. I mean, I don't hate it, but it's hard. This is first year I've actually realized that I never have enough to say to someone that's going to be leaving. Cause last year, I never really cared for seniors if they left, I didn't feel that I was going to miss them, only a couple, but I knew that I'd be just fine cause I wasn't so close to them. But this year is hella different, I was speechless when it actually came down to writing what I wanted to say. It's like i KNEW what to say, but it was just hella hard to put it in words cause I didn't even know where to start.. It was especially hard writing in Gaby's yearbook. Damn, I couldn't write enough. . And I feel like I didn't write enough. It's like I knew what I wanted to say, But I didn't know where to start. . . (Hello Gaby, I miss you.) And I'm hella mad that I actually wanted to write in their yearbooks some of the seniors didn't even get them.

I don't even know what to say anymore. i got practice soon, Deuces.

What's a man to do?...

"No need to smoke, no need to drink. Pretty much a natural high." :)

I have no idea of what to say, I'm blankin' out. A million things are going through my mind. So I'll just cut to pictures...















WDWYT


Cleeeeeeeaaaan





Photogenic asses, haha

The black way

The "fat-boy" way

The Smart way, haha





Damn, haha

Hope you were in peace and serene.
Deuces.

Tick-Tock, times a runnin'

I'm speechless at the moment.
Nothing seems to be... i don't know the word for it.
But I'm tired of things being "half-assed"...
I know, it's pretty vague.
Anyway, ahh.. so much wasted effort. I wish i could rewind time.
Then after I fix everything, Be able to read minds so that I don't make mistakes again, haha.. damn.

Shouts to Buddha, I know you see me, I see you shinin' doin ya thing. haha Stay up tho.
You'll be missed big bro, forreal..



Deuces.

Vent

Forreal though, I have nobody to tell things anymore. Atleast without me feeling like they're gonna mess things up or because I think they'll have some sort of opinion on me. It's hard, no lie... I feel lonly sometimes, but I know i have people to talk to. I know they wanna be there for me, but it's like I'm not letting them be there for me, if that makes any sense.
I wanna make things right with everybody, but some things are just holding me back. I don't wanna hide that anymore. But I really don't mean to, this goes out to a lot of you people. I feel like some people want to be closer to me, maybe because we were before... PROBABLY because we were before, but I feel like it's because of me that I can't let that happen. I don't want to say I have trust issues, but I think I do. And it's eating me alive. I'm only hurting myself because I isolate myself so much from friends because I don't let them know what's going on in my life anymore, and that makes us NOT close. I know that some people will always be there for me, I know that there ARE people that I could trust with becoming close to and shit... so why am I not letting myself do that? I'm hella confused. But all I do know is that I want to make things better, for myself and everybody else that cares for me. It's hard. I don't know what made me like this, maybe it's just school itself, or maybe it's just my own stress, but whatever it is... I didn't realize it 'till now and I only wish that I couldn't stopped the process. I bet if I didn't cloud myself so much before, I could've been a lot happier with everything that's going on right now. Not that I'm not happy, but I could be happier. Things could be better. Or maybe I'm not happy with how things are right now...

It''s kinda hard to make out, I'm trying to break it all down and figure it out piece by piece. But i have been noticing better days. Better things happening for me. I'm getting closer with my relatives, I made it into show Choir, I'm joining forensics (and I'm pretty excited about it), and I'm slowly seeing familiar faces more often now that I'm trying to open myself out again. I'm seeing it, I'm sick of feeling sad. I think it's because I ponder a lot over the things that I can't have in my life, and I focus my interests in those particular things that I don't find room in my days to be appreciative about what I already have, or more like WHO i already have. I wonder why I'm just realizing this at this very moment... Maybe i had to type everything down slowly for me to actually break it down and figure it out. I can't be sad at the end of the year like this, I know who I am and what I'm capable of. I KNOW that I can just brush shit off. Why aren't I doing it? Where did all my pride go?

Man, what's going on?