Chill...

Kerks, what's going on with you right now?

These past two weeks have been really vagu. I don't know if I should call it good or bad, But I wanna say good, or atleast Alright. As in, everything's just going along... Nothing has been planned, I haven't paid much attention to any details about anything, and I feel hella lost.. Haha, i guess that's the absolute definition of being in a chill state. But I don't know how the hell I'm doing right now. I feel hella mixed.. I'm hella confused and crap. I need to figure myself out. Bout to go camping with family, Maybe this'll help me out, take some time. Fuckin get away..
Summer is going by smoothly, It's very relaxing. And it should be for everybody. Hella laid back, going to things at the last minute, haha. It's coo tho, I'm enjoying the riiiiiiide. I don't want it to end...
I wanna spend time with people, I wanna be around a crowd or a group most of the time, Or I always wanna just chop it up and chill. As long as I'm not alone. I like just sitting down and talking. I like being outside and roaming. I like playing basketball with random Niggas and shit, haha. Ahhh, I feel all good now for some reason.

Fuck, I'm trying to change myself. I'm trying to be somebody that makes decisions without turning back. No regrets, I wanna be able to stand behind whatever I conclude. And I wanna stop thinking that just because something is the way it is, doesn't mean it's the end of the fuckin' world. Sorry for my language, haha shit I wanna change that too. I wanna be more proper, more precise. More friendly, More caring, less contemplative, less "UN-"decisive, and more active. I swear, I can't stay in the house! unless I'm hella tired, then daaaaaamn I just wanna chill. Come by the house and chill with me. We'll make brownies and talk and shit :)

I don't know what else to write. I can't wait to leave, but I know once I leave I'll be hella anxious to come back. Ahhh, I just can't wait to chill. I'll take pictures and shiiiit, Have a great weekend. Everybody have a safe 4th of July. Again... sorry for all this cussing, haha. Text me though, even though I might not have service. I wanna come back to my phone with hella stuff. And yes, I mean ANYBODY. . .
fuck I'm still feeling hella mixeed and shit. Oh well,

paize.